Xan’s birth!

How do you pronounce his name?
Like “Zan”, or “Xander” without the ‘der’.

What’s his middle name?
Haven’t picked one yet.

So when were you due?
Initially I thought I was due around October 10th, but later on I realized this couldn’t be possible, given when I tested. I spent a long time looking over my chart and comparing testing dates and results with the product website and experiences from my past cycles and found myself due around September 10th. This also made my measurements, dates I felt movement and when I found the heartbeat by fetoscope make a lot more sense.

Was it hard to push him out?
He was way easier to push out than Tempest was. I think this was in part due to being underwater, but mostly due to how much ‘fuller’ he was when coming down. There was a lot more weight and a lot more pressure, it’s like the difference between trying to scale a rock wall with handholds 4 feet apart versus ones six inches apart. You can reach the top on both, but one is significantly easier.

How are you feeling?
Natural birth rocks. I feel awesome.
My back and my ribs hurt a little, which is what my mom refers to as “negative pressure” of my ribs coming back in. When I cough (I’m still getting over that damned cold) it feels like my ribs go in too far. It’s crazy how instantaneously things change. I can bend, I have no heartburn, I can take a deep breath, I don’t have to waddle when I walk.
I didn’t tear at all, not even a little bit of rugburn. I waited a day to check, and I’m barely swollen; it doesn’t even sting when I go to the bathroom and I have no pelvic pain or discomfort at all. Honestly I don’t feel like I just gave birth. Other than the mild rib/back pain which I don’t believe is as much related to birth as it is just not being pregnant anymore – I don’t feel anything! It’s hard not to want to just get up and do everything because I feel A-MAZ-ING.
I’d also like to take this opportunity to give a big fat F-U to Dr. Giganto-Hands who performed my cesarean, who made sure to remind me the day after Jericho died that I should schedule all my next births surgeries with him.

I hear short labours are really intense…
Mine was only intense toward the very last ten minutes or so, but really it wasn’t as hard as I thought it was going to be. I spent most of it wondering when it was going to get worse.

What’s that necklace you’re wearing?
It’s altarflame‘s birthing necklace, which she gave to me shortly after Jericho died.

What’s the birth story?

Edited January of ’07 for details and such
Around 5am I woke up to a few mild cramps. The anticipation more than the sensation kept me awake until Curtis woke up two hours later to leave for work. They weren’t regular and were pretty mild. Every half hour or so I’d have one that hurt and then they would all but stop. I told Curtis to go to work anyway; if they actually turned into something I’d call him in a few hours.
I got up and plodded around the house a little bit, and the more I moved the more they spread out and eventually just felt like mild gas pains. I ate some breakfast, talked with my friend LC who was staying at the house with her seven month old girl, and by 9:30am I was much too tired to stay awake any longer. I asked LC if she would watch my three year old, Tempest, for me and went back for a nap.
I slept soundly for three hours. When I got up I felt a hundred percent better and the on-and-off cramps had long stopped. I frequently got these kinds of cramps, although usually only in the evening, and dismissed them as merely a return of the painful braxton hicks.
Earlier that day I had written to a few close friends that I thought the cramps might turn into something and now I felt silly for jumping the gun seeing as they’d completely stopped. I was on my way to change my message to “false alarm” but made a stop at the bathroom before going to the computer. When I undressed I saw that I’d lost my mucous plug in a very big (and gross) way. I checked my cervix; it was around 4cm dilated with a bulging bag. I’ve never had a bulging bag before so I had no idea what it was at first. The baby was still facing outward at this point so I gave into the fact that I’d be having my third posterior labour! I guess when you don’t know the difference it’s not that bad.

Because I had made it up to 5cm before I ever even started labour with my second child, I didn’t count this so quickly as being “in labour”, but did consider the idea that it would be within the next few days.
LC and I decided to go for a walk down to the corner store for some drinks. I’m pretty sure she offered the walk to try and perk my contractions back up again, she had that look in her eye when she grabbed her coat. I was there for her labour so she knew the tricks.

We were gone about half an hour. While I walked I got mild, tiny squeezes every three few or so that really weren’t that regular nor painful. I only had to stop walking twice, but not so much for pain as just for the intensity of the squeeze – they felt a little like someone taking both hands to the side of my belly and pushing it inward. These felt different from my day-to-day cramping but also didn’t feel quite like real labour.
When I came home and sat down they spaced out to ten-to-fourteen minutes and I barely felt them, but I had already resolved to call my friend Amber (who would be photographing) and Curtis just the same. Even if it wasn’t labour I figured Curtis wouldn’t mind coming home an hour early. I predicted that real labour would probably hit late that night or the following morning since all of this warm-up generally happens a day or so before the real contractions start going.

I left a message for my friend and then called Curtis and told him to come home. When he repeated, “Now?” back into the phone I heard co-workers behind him start cheering and clapping.
While I waited for Curtis to get home I checked myself again and couldn’t feel my cervix. The bulging bag and now part of a head were so low that I couldn’t get my fingers in far enough to feel what was going on. I figured I couldn’t be that much further in and gave up on checking. Real labour hadn’t actually started yet, and the only difference seemed to be that he’d engaged. The mild were sometimes as far as twenty minutes apart and I only noticed them if I paid attention.
I sat on the birthing ball in front of the computer and made my updates. Curtis came home about ten minutes later, and literally as soon as the front door opened real labour hit and the contractions were suddenly five minutes apart and intense. It was as though someone had flicked a switch to start me up. There was no gradual build-up to it.
I couldn’t get off the ball; every time I tried a contraction would hit and I’d have to sit back down again. I ended up stuck at the computer for an hour. I was feeling rather ridiculous, thinking that I was going to have my baby in front of the computer with forums and friends up on the screen and how I could never again claim to not be addicted to the internet if that actually came to pass.

Finally I managed to get up and go to the bathroom. I wanted to be alone for a while and feel my contractions without distraction. I laboured on the toilet for another hour, by myself. The contractions felt much easier there: I was able to focus more on opening up and made quieter, lower noises through them. I kept my fingers and throat open and tried to make my body limp when each contraction crept up. It was working very well, being able to be alone and not afraid that eventually someone would burst in made it so much easier to relax and I was almost able to sleep, or at least disassociate, through the contractions by self-hypnosis.
I continued this for about forty minutes before the cramps became a little more intense and I was unable to continue the meditation through them. I had a little bit of bloody show at that point, and was still unable to check myself because of how low the baby’s head was.

Curtis quietly asked permission to enter my birthing zone to bring me ice water with a bendy straw and some yogurt and granola to eat. I had as much as I could, but was starting to feel nauseated and couldn’t finish it. After a few more contractions I decided to try and fill up the tub and see if some of the warm water would help.
I ran the bath as high as it would go and tried to get comfortable. It was at this point that I started feeling that intense “nothing is working” feeling that is very typical of transition. Although I didn’t recognize this as transition (also typical of transition…) The contractions were a little closer together, a little more intense but I was still waiting for them to get “really bad” and still considered myself in early labour.

At the tail end of a few contractions I felt this very odd tingling feeling in my chest and upper belly. It was something I’ve never experienced before. It felt almost like a tiny urge to push, more of a nudge than an urge. With the next contraction I tried giving a little push and that felt pretty good, so I called Curtis in and asked him to stay. I still didn’t feel like I was really that close to the end, and imagined I would be hitting transition soon. I always expect transition to be so dramatic that I cannot possibly mistake it for anything else, but this is my third labour now and I have yet to be “taken over” by one the way I see others experience it.
The tickling feeling started to get a little more nagging, but still didn’t feel like a real urge to push. I held it in, exactly scared but a little unnerved by the speed and the idea of letting go of this baby. The last baby who left my body died shortly after birth, only 11 months prior, and I was struggling throughout pregnancy with the fears that leaving the haven of my womb and cutting the cord would result in the death of my child. I asked Curtis to give me some reassurance that it was okay to give in and start pushing, and as soon as the words left his mouth my water broke with a huge pop that was audible even underwater. The level of the tub raised up by about an inch, if not more. There was some meconium (normal for postdates babies) and a little bit of blood. I felt his head come down very hard and the urge to push was now undeniable. I leaned back in the tub so I could raise my hips and get as much coverage in the water as possible. After only one push I started to feel a burning sensation. I had Curtis reach down and feel his head just as it started to crown. I could feel the thick rolls and wrinkles on the top of his head and realized he was going to be fat, just as I’d been hoping.
The next few minutes were so incredibly intense for me. Not just physically, but emotionally. It was coming very fast and I had expected myself to be terrified of letting go of this baby… but I wasn’t.

I applied very gentle counterpressure to my perineum to prevent tearing when I felt him crown at his biggest, and Curtis mistakenly thought I was trying to push him back in and at first tried to gently move my hand. It’s a little difficult to speak coherently when one is crowning a baby, so all I could muster was, “No no no!”.
I’m not a big fan of the ring of fire sensation, so I made a lot of horrible noises over the few seconds it took for his head to come out.

Once his head come out all the way the relief was instant. I reached down and felt his nose and eyes. He came out anterior, even though when I’d checked his positioning a few hours ago he was still firmly set in a posterior presentation. I had felt a lot of spinning and moving just moments before I started pushing and I imagine that’s when he turned the right way.
I felt him rotate his body to prepare his shoulders for birth; the feeling was just like someone trying to pull him out and I yelled, “What the hell is that?!”. Curtis didn’t have an answer for me and didn’t realize I was asking rhetorically. It was an incredibly weird feeling.
About twenty or thirty seconds passed and I gave one more push. His body flew out so fast he went almost clear across the tub. Both Curtis and I reached down and together we pulled him up out of the water. He was a little gray at first so I started vigorously rubbing his back. I turned him over one arm and slanted him downward, saying, “Come on baby, come on baby”. Curtis tells me later this made him nervous, but I wasn’t afraid at all. I knew he was fine. Curtis admits this was the point where he forgot everything I’d ever told him about how being a bit slow to start is okay when you’re not clamping cutting the cord the instant they’re out. The umbilical cord continues to provide a steady stream of oxygen, blood and nourishment until the placenta detaches from the uterine wall: it is a lifeline.
I saw him open up his eyes right away, he started grunting a few seconds later, and pinked up very fast after that.

My mother, LC and Tempest were waiting outside the door and all came in to see him just as we were lifting him out. I vaguely recall my mother asking, “She’s okay?” when she saw his (we were all thinking “her”) initial colour, and I answered, “Yup!”.
She was incredibly supportive and calm through this experience, I’m so grateful she took what I had said to heart and been such a rock. She never tried to interfere and was incredibly respectful with offerings of help and support. She wasn’t a “mother hen” in the least, didn’t lose her cool and I’m grateful for her presence around me during the labour. It’s a complete turnaround from how she’d acted when I was labouring with Tempest: fretting and busying and generally making everyone a little bit nervous.
I asked LC to check her watch and it was 6:10pm, and it had been about two minutes since he’d emerged so we called it 6:08!

Tempest wanted to join me in the tub, but it was pretty gross so I asked her not to get in. Instead she perched on the edge: “That’s a baby! Look at that baby! That baby came out your ‘gina. That baby is sad. Will you nurse that baby with your nipple?”.

He started nuzzling at my breast but didn’t seem too interested in nursing. A few minutes later my mother asked, “What’s her name?”
“He. It’s a boy,” said Curtis.
“It is not,” I said. I lifted his legs to check, and then started screaming. All through my pregnancy I kept hearing his name in my dreams, I’d shared it with Curtis and wondered why it never felt quite right. We’d spent many nights sitting on the couch for hours at a time trying to figure out why it didn’t fit when it felt like that was the right name. I kept applying it to a girl. In the back of my mind I would think, ‘but it would be perfect for a boy’.
Curtis had noticed as soon as he came out but kept it so that I would figure it out on my own!

Less than five minutes after he was born Curtis pointed out that the placenta was sitting right at my perineum, just as I’d visualized in my meditations. I gave a tiny push and it came right out. We stayed in the tub about twenty minutes adoring him before I pulled the plug and had Curtis set up the bed with chux pads so I could lay down. I wrapped Xan in a clean, hot towel that my mother had just warmed in the dryer and passed him to LC so that I could clean off the placenta in the tub and check it over to make sure it was whole.
As I rinsed myself off I noticed quite a few large clots so I asked Curtis to bring me a half cup of water with a few teaspoons of chlorophyll in it to help rebuild blood supply. I drank a glass of ice water, and then sipped on some orange juice as I got into bed and nursed him. Amber arrived about ten or so minutes later (missing the three hour birth completely!) and started taking photos.
In the meantime, I called my father and announced the news personally, Curtis called his work (that he’d only left a few hours before!) and his mother.

I felt so comfortable and glowing. I wasn’t even the slightest bit sore. Everything just seemed absolutely perfect and… normal. Even though something so amazing had just happened, I could just get up and go on with life. I didn’t even think about my cesarean scar, or my hospital experience less than a year before.
After a few hours I called my LLL Leader and asked to borrow her scale to weigh him since we had forgotten to pick one up. She came by, oohing and awwing, took part in the weighing and asked me all about my birth. I promised to come and show him off at the next meeting (eight days later) and gave her permission to make a birth announcement to the email list.
Amber went and picked up my friend Marian who had been present at my daughter’s birth and brought her over to see him. I was up until almost 2am, nursing, making phone calls and letting it sink in that I’d just given birth. Life felt so undisturbed by the process; it was so quiet.
It’s amazing to have a secret no one else knows until you choose to tell them.
A baby was just born and the only people who know of his new existence were those I wanted to. We had the opportunity to tell whoever we wanted, whenever we wanted.

We wrapped Xan’s placenta in some towels, salted it and swaddled him up with it on his stomach. We didn’t officially decide anything with it, but it didn’t feel right to cut the cord so soon. When he was about two days old, after the cord had long dried and started to crimp and break, it felt right to separate him at the breaking point.
Curtis cleaned and boiled a pair of scissors and I spent some time talking with Xan and asking his permission. We put the placenta in the freezer, planning to plant it in the spring.
The point where the cord was breaking off was around eight inches past his navel, but when we clipped it there, even though it was completely dried and brittle, it somehow curled into a perfect tight coil around his belly just before falling off at the next diaper change.

Xan Ronan weighed over 9lbs and while we had no exact ounce measurement we do know based on placenta weight and his pattern of loss/gain that it was closer to 9.5lbs than 9. He was 21 inches long (the same as his sister) and about three weeks overdue. He had black hair, dark eyes and darker skin just like his “irish twin” less than a year before him.
As a small woman (5′) treated for pituitary dwarfism, who married a tall man (6’4″) I’m pretty sick of hearing about how I will never be able to birth any big babies. It’s pretty nice to be able to hold up my 17lb 2.5 month old and say that not only did I birth over nine pounds of bouncing baby boy naturally and unassisted, but I did it VBAC!

Newborns look so tiny to me I can’t believe he weighs more than Tempest did. Then again, I do notice some differences: the smallest setting on diapers are much too small for him, and the two or three preemie-sized diapers I have can’t fasten. He can also fit into the size small longies I knitted and his legs are much too long for the newborns (which also happen to be frilly and girly). He doesn’t seem that chunky with the exception of his shoulders, I guess he carries it well!

I couldn’t see it before, but looking back over Tempest’s pictures she looks so tiny compared to him, so I guess he is bigger!



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  • mewsicfreak says:

    this was gorgeous to read…and the picture of you smiling big on the phone holding the baby made me smile just as big πŸ™‚ Love it!
    Thanks for sharing!

  • This is quite possibly the most beautiful birth story that I have ever read…


  • Reading this always, always makes me cry. Damn.

  • This may sound crazy since he’s just born, but I think he’s got your nose πŸ™‚ Cute little upturn at the end.

    I’m so glad it all went relatively easy for you and your family!

  • aftondays says:

    Even though you’ve already received about a trillion comments on this entry, and you don’t know me, I just want to say thanks for posting this. I’m planning a home birth with my next baby (not pregnant yet but hopefully it won’t be too long) and stories like this make me really excited about the idea! My daughter was born at a freestanding birth center, and was a waterbirth, and I loved the experience; it sounds even better to do it at home. Anyway…that’s all. Thank you, and congratulations on your little boy. πŸ™‚

  • skrimpy says:

    absolutely wonderful story! got your link from another UP/UC plannin mama’s blog. What a treasure your story and your little one are. Congrats mama!

  • lozzy_pop says:

    That’s a beautiful birth story, i’m glad you had such a great birth.

  • astradivaj says:

    That was really, really beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

  • I love your look of sheer delight in the photo where you’re on the phone.

    I wandered over from and wanted to welcome your newest addition. Xan is a very adorable babe. I’m sure that Tempest is being a great big sister.

    Her “‘gina” made me laugh because I used that same word when I was 2 & 3.

    Blessings to your beautiful son. May you have many joyous years together!

  • Oh, I just cried hearing you’d given birth to your sweet babe. He’s perfect, so happy for all of you, Babs. (Been internet lacking for a week, just found out!) Congrats, congrats, congrats.

  • That is such a wonderful story. So glad everything went so well, he’s beautiful!

  • SQUEE!

    omg. i want one too.

  • cece00 says:

    Congratulations! He’s beautiful.

  • tellinellen says:

    he’s so so beautiful, and this is an amazing story. thank you, as always, for sharing your life with all of us. enjoy your baby moon.

  • persephone82 says:

    I don’t know how you’ll have tine to read these all, but I am SO HAPPY for you, after all you’ve gone through with Jericho, I’m so glad that this birth went so well. May you heal, physically, emotionally and spiritually. πŸ™‚

  • dearreese says:

    You bring me hope…after loss

    You don’t know me from a hole in a wall, but I have been following your story. We lost our daughter, Reese, in July. She was born sleeping after 10 hours of labor at just 16 weeks into my pregnancy. I was so very touched by your shadow box and blankets that you made. I am writting this from my journal souly dedicated to the journey of loosing Reese…and rebuilding our lives.

    To see your joy, your elation, your beautiful live baby…it brings me such hope. You have a beautiful family.

    I am very touched by you.

    All the congrats in the world. You are amazing

    • dearreese says:

      Re: You bring me hope…after loss

      a question, if you feel like answering and if you have time!

      Do you feel like it was good to get pregnant again soon after, or like you should have waited. We are in a quandry about when to really start ttc again…there are so many ups and downs and pros and cons…of course looking in his sweet face I know you would not change a thing about his timing..I am just curious how you got through the grief and the pregnancy. I hope this question is not inappropriate..if it please feel free to tell me!

      • admin says:

        Re: You bring me hope…after loss

        I don’t know if I can answer that, because at the time I was terrified to be pregnant. I didn’t *not* want to be pregnant, but I also didn’t want to be pregnant again so soon…
        But, at the same time, I am thankful it snuck up and took me by surprise… because I don’t think there ever would have been a time when I was “ready” to have a baby after a loss. No matter how much I might have wanted to be pregnant, and wanted to fill my empty arms, the actuality of being pregnant was absolutely terrifying and I also struggled with a lot of guilt.

        Someone told me shortly after Jericho died that being pregnant again very soon seems to ‘rush’ the grieving process: and it does. You feel as though your energies are best spent on someone new and it creates a whole cycle of guilt. You don’t really “get through” loss grief and pregnancy, you just cope with it as it happens.

  • schmatalie says:

    i hope i have a birth like this someday πŸ™‚


  • _evalution says:

    oh, have you measured his length is yet?

  • _evalution says:

    I felt so comfortable and glowing. I wasn’t even the slightest bit sore. Everything just seemed absolutely perfect and… normal. Even though something so amazing had just happened, I could just get up and go on with life.

    this part of your story reminds me of one of Laura Shanley’s that i read on the born free site. maybe it was her 3rd child? but had the baby, then rounded up her other little ones, bundled the baby, and they all took a walk to see her husband and show off the baby. that image is one that has always stuck in my head. and i really think unassisted birthing gives you that. after i had luna, we walked 7 blocks down hill to catch a train, rode the train into the city, and then went from there to the hospital. i started having some intense cramping on the train due to the placenta, but i really did feel great, otherwise. i felt strong and healthy. i also believe the postpartum healing was greating impeeded by the “care” i recieved by the hospital staff. the stitches were the slowest part to heal, and what gave me pain weeks after.

  • absinthea says:

    A very tardy congratulations to you. He is BEAUTIFUL and you look like the absolute picture of radiant mama!! Much love and hugs to you, and let me join you in giving a big fat F-U to that doctor as well πŸ˜‰

  • jesamin says:

    The picture of you on the phone is so, so perfect. I can just feel how happy and at peace you are, it’s wonderful. I’m so happy for all of you!!

  • thanks for sharing your birth story, I am always in awe of birthing women’s power. I love how your story has inspired so many women.

  • molly_diane says:

    Congratulations! He was and I share the same birthday!

    Yay for baby! Yay for momma! Yay!

  • wanderingio says:

    That picture of you on the phone is Priceless.

    WTG, Mama!

  • anngwish42 says:

    Again, congratulations and SQUEEEEE! He’s, like, the most beautiful newborn ever.

    You’re always an inspiration to me, which I think I tell you occasionally, but right now you’re inspiring me to want another baby. And have a homebirth. I’m going to hold this birth in my mind to remind me, whenever I can re-spawn, that a good birth is possible after a bad one…

  • i don’t want to sound dotty or anything, but your generosity in sharing your story with everyone/me has impacted me in the most positive way regarding the pregnancies that i have been dreaming of and planning toward for so long. i cant thank you enough. thankyouthankyouthankyou!

  • bazo0ka says:

    See.. I told you…

    I told you I’d wish upon you my easy 3hr labour – and I did! πŸ˜‰ That is SO beautiful! I’m speechless. I’ve been ooh’ing and awww’ing over your photos and story for the entire day now.

    I’m relieved you didn’t tear as well. I had NO tearing and only did the 3 real pushes sorta thing.. it was amazing. I totally know that feeling of being 100% better already. If I hadn’t almost bled to death and needed a D&C I would’ve been just like that. I was a couple days after though – hardly any pain/soreness/swelling..

    Like all the pp have said, that photo of you on teh phone to your dad is amazing. I cried when I saw that, and cried again when I read it was your dad on teh phone. Thats a totally frame-worthy photo if you ask me..

    Well done! Big hugs and a little kiss for the newest little one! Enjoy the babymoon!

  • carlos2112 says:

    I was thinking about you today and home/water-birthing in general, and I found myself wondering what the water would look like after birth. Would it stay clean, would it become murky?

    Now I know. And for the record, I think it’s beautiful. Thanks for sharing this!

  • cerise_blue says:

    i just wandered over to read the birth story — congrats! i can only hope that my UBAC goes as well as yours did. take care! ♥

  • aisling78 says:

    This was incredible. Congratulations! Thank you so much for letting us be a part of this by sharing Xan’s birth story. You have reminded so many people that pregnancy and childbirth are natural, and not a “medical condition.” Xan is just beautiful.

  • maylea_moon says:

    i finally read it (i was up all night watching lost so i didn’t get to yesterday). such a beautiful story, mama. having a UC in 3 hours less then a year after a c-section sounds SO EMPOWERING. i’m sure you’ve given many women so much more hope and confidence with their own bodies (i know you have for me). he’s absolutely beautiful. your family is beautiful. i’m working on a present for baby Xan. πŸ™‚

  • Wow. WOW!! WOWOOOW!! Heather, you are amazing!



    wowie wow wow!!

  • conchispa says:

    Beautiful, empowering and inspirational! Your family is beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing!

    Can I ask about why you were so convinced you were having a girl, even despite hearing a boy’s name in your dreams? If it’s even possible to explain how you “know”. If that’s too personal of a question, I apologize.

    • admin says:

      I can’t really answer that, because there is no answer… A few have suggested to me that perhaps I convinced myself it was a girl because I was scared to have a(nother) boy.

      • elise06 says:

        This was my thought, actually… It occurred to me that maybe you had this (unkwown) fear of having a boy – as if he would replace Jericho. Of course, this isn’t the case at all.

        I realize this is a random comment from a total stranger… Just wanted to share. πŸ™‚

  • asskicka says:

    Strike one for unassisted in BC!
    You are a hope and inspiration for the upisland girls!!

  • Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I think it’s the first time I’ve felt joyful and peaceful instead of petrified and intensely nervous after reading a birth story. What a beautiful baby he is; what a beautiful family. I especially love the last two photos. The expression on your face is just beyond words.

  • jeninmaine says:

    I love the two pictures in order:

    Picture 1:
    Xan: WAH!!!!
    Boob: aimed at mouth

    Picture 2:
    Xan: Mmph!

  • noniegrace says:

    I am so incredibly happy for you. The picture of you on the phone made me tear up, I think that is the happiest I’ve seen you in a picture in quite a while. This may be totally inappropriate, but you have great nipples πŸ™‚

  • stabeest says:

    I’ve been lurking your journal for about a year now. I know you don’t know me from Adam, but you have seriously taught me a lot just through your writing. I stumbled across your journal while researching natural childbirth for a writing project and have been reading ever since.

    I feel like I’ve learned from you that birth is not medical procedure. It’s a natural thing and does not require a doctor, a bevy of nurses, and an OR on standby. At the risk of sounding ridiculous, my entire mindset regarding childbirth has shifted because of reading your journal and watching your completely natural pregnancy.

    Anyway, congratulations. Your boy is gorgeous.

  • tahoebean says:

    Congratulations Heather!! What a wonderful story, and such a beautiful happy day after so much pain. You & Curtis make beautiful children πŸ˜‰ *hugs and mushy crap* πŸ˜‰

  • hippyfeet says:

    I am in awe…

    You are amazing! Great work momma. I am so proud of you!

  • Anonymous says:

    I love the picture of you nursing him while you’re on the phone. You are glowing :)Congratulations again. How does Tempest like having a little brother?

  • congrats babs you look so beautiful and full of joy. how does it feel to have another baby boy!?!?! does he looks like J did when he was born?!? im so PROUD of you, you truly are a strong woman i look up to you! i wish nothing but the best for you and your fam!!


  • Congrats! He is beautiful!

    I have been lurking around since Jericho’s birth and shared a little of my c-section and stillbirth story with you back then, but I just wanted to say how strong and such a wonderful mother I think you are. And brave to boot – I am so scared of having another c-section with my next child but our town will not allow a v-back in the hospital… You bring me hope that I could have a home birth or a v-back in another town!!

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

  • baitnswitch says:

    He’s so adorable! I had a feeling he was a born when the one comment asked how you knew it was a girl & you said you just knew, life is random like that. And the fact that you still didn’t have a name.
    Does Tempest get along with him well?

    Question, I got this video http://www.homebirthvideos.com/birthday_dvd.asp (DVD is shown, I have a VHS) at a local thrift shop (score! for 25cents!) when I was pregnant, do you know anyone else who could use it?
    It’s a nice video (11mins) but my daughter was born at 29wks so I had a hospital birth & only want 1 child. The site has it priced at $30.00 plus shipping & I will sell it for just what it costs to ship it πŸ™‚ Please let me know when you can.

  • cat_heron says:

    I was born three weeks late, and my nails had a chance to grow grow grow. I scratched the heck out of myself in only a few hours, mom always said. In all my newborn photos, I’ve got little booties on my hand that remind me of the stirup covers you see on examination tables in doctor’s offices.

  • cat_heron says:

    I imagine “alternative” birthing method could be pricy for our friends in the States, if they were choosing to do it in a hospital!

  • alison_in_oh says:

    Wow, I thought I was kidding about the source of confusion for the names you were getting! That’s pretty awesome that as strongly as you thought you felt “girl” from your subconscious, your sub-sub-conscious knew better all along! πŸ™‚

    And now I’m seriously second-guessing my convictions about my critter’s sex — but of course, that’s half the fun of having a surprise! πŸ™‚

    Thank you so much for the birth story, and congrats again on your birth and your son. πŸ™‚

  • medland says:

    He is beautiful. You’re amazing, a total inspiration to me. I love the photo of you on the phone. Thank you so much for sharing that with us. Sending much love to you all.

  • ranz117 says:

    OMG WAY TO GO MOM!!!!!
    First of all I SO LOVE HIS NAME! He is just way TOO CUTE for words!!! The Picture of you one the phone is way AMAZING! The story made me smile and tears came to my eyes at how wonderful it all went for you.
    Congrats to you and yours!

  • comitto says:

    what a wonderful birth experience. we’re so trained to think of labor as this traumatic, unsafe experience, but after reading your story it all seems so egregiously unnecessary.

  • What a powerful birth. You are amazing. Congratulations to you and your family. Thank you for sharing your birth with us.

  • Hi Babs…
    Thank you so much for sharing your birth story. You are truly an inspiration to me. Xan is beautiful.


  • ayanamisama says:

    I think if more people knew that homebirth could be like that, they’d open up to it. It’s such an awesome story, and you’re so amazing for being able to do it.

    Major congrats are in order.

    And he’s so cute!!!

  • frogmorest says:

    Oh wow. Even though I heard it all on the phone I love to read what you write. I so wish I could be there just to squish his little bod and sit and chat while you nurse your wee (or not so wee) one. I need to find a cheap flight to you and come visit I think πŸ˜‰

  • lost_almost says:

    That picture of you on the phone is the one that is most telling -you look so happy and relaxed and so totally NORMAL. Your narratives are evocative, but this is the picture that will stay in my mind when I am trying to convince myself and others to try a natural birth.

    In that last picture, does he have socks/mittens on his hands? What is that for?

  • emfish says:

    He’s absolutely beautiful! And I know what you mean about him looking tiny to you, even though he’s relatively big for a newborn…my daughter was over 9lbs too, and she looked like just the littlest thing ever.

    He’ll get big so fast- especially off that yummy mama milk. Isabella is 5 months old now, and chunky as ever! I can’t wait to see him grow!

  • Awww thank you so much for that! That’s the best birth story I’ve ever read.

    Xan is so precious, and what a great eater!

    I’m so proud of you. Love you.

    How is Tempest doing in the big sister role so far?

  • beate73 says:

    I’m so happy for you!!

  • xelasminin says:

    congratulations hun! makes me want to do a home birth! My son came 5 weeks early so we had to go to the hospital (planned on hospital birth at the time anyhow) but I refused any type of drugs and the whole bit, and the whole natural birth thing is the most amazing thing ever! I felt like such a women and so powerful!

    the pictures are beautiful!!

  • six58 says:

    i admire you so much.

    im SO glad that everything went so smoothly.

    you’re amazing.
    he’s amazing.

  • congrats ….im going for a vbac … id do a water birth but i knw they cost alot of money ..

    but congrats his a handsome boy!!

    • admin says:

      What about it costs money?

      • everything.. cause id have to have the baby at the hospital and whey cost money cause medicade doesnt cover water births/home births or doulas…

        i wouldnt know how to do it on my own like you did…i wish i could but i wouldnt even know where to begin.

        • admin says:

          That sucks. πŸ™
          Do they actually charge you for getting in a tub or bringing in a pool of your own?

        • If you are interested in a doula, but can’t afford one there are lots of doulas that will volunteer for births. Try looking on these sites: bellywomen.net, alace.org, dona.org, cappa.net and call around to local la leche leagues, birth centers, childbirth instructors, hospitals, ask your care provider, etc. They are out there! Even if a doula doesn’t have a lot of birth experience she can still be very helpful πŸ™‚

  • allyray231 says:

    So wonderful to see such joy on your face πŸ™‚ He is amazing! Congrats again

  • altarflame says:

    Ananda asked why you have two nipples πŸ˜‰

    You are so beautiful, he is so beautiful, I feel blessed and grateful to be a part of your birth in even subtle and indirect ways.

    I’M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!! I was yelping and laughing out loud and squealing, as I read through this and looked at everything, and Grant called from the living room, “She updated again?”

    *sigh of contentment*

  • mrs_wills says:

    Along with all your friends, fans, and de-lurkers above me, let me pass on my heartfelt congratulations and a huge thank you for sharing your story with us. I’m so excited about getting to have babies of my own soon, to cherish and nuture – oh wow, there go my ovaries again. Down, girls!

    Your story is not just inspiring, but compelling. Treating pregnancy and birth like an emergency waiting to happen, like a disease to be treated, seems just wrong after a birth like Xan’s.

    Blessings on you!

  • eiretamicha says:

    I love the fourth picture where he’s looking up at you. It’s like he’s saying, “Oh, so you’re the one whose voice I’ve been hearing for the past nine months!” He’s so beautiful!! And you are so awesome! πŸ˜€

  • Congratulations! Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us.

  • You are so amazing!!! He is so adorable… it gives me the baby bug… πŸ™‚ So sweet!

  • Wow. Just, wow. That is a beautiful story. I confess, I am a medical assistance nut, the mere thought of home/natural birth used to be so strange to me. I’m coming to appreciate it more and more and this story really does inspire me. That’s just an awesome and moving birth story and I love this: Life felt so undisturbed by the process; it was so quiet. I had a c-sec and life most certainly felt disturbed afterward, I love the thought of being at home with no one taking my blood pressure every hour or drawing my blood. I have a lot to think about for my next birth (not that I am pregnant or anything, but still.)

    He’s adorable. πŸ™‚

  • our_nest says:

    thank you for letting us all be a part of such a momentous occassion. he is beautiful and im so happy it went well

  • I am so happy for you. The birthing story is absolutely amazing. I’ll definitely be sharing it with our families when time comes for the next baby. (Levi and I would both like a homebirth… the families will a bit hard to convince that it’s safe/a good thing.) The pictures are absolutely beautiful… the one of you on the phone is worth ten million words!

  • Look at that perfect latch!! Right there in the tub! What a great baby.

    How awesome. That word gets thrown around a lot, but I am in awe of you. You had such an amazing, awesome, peaceful birth. Congratulations. I am so happy for you.

  • miz_kitty says:

    Congratulatoins to all of you.

    You give me so much hope and inspiration.

    I love the one of you on the phone. You look so happy and vibrant….not defeated and exhausted like most pictures I’ve seen.

    Much love to you all.

  • babymomma13 says:

    Congratulations I’m so happy for you. He’s beautiful and perfect and you did such a wonderful job. You are so incredibly inspiring!

    Enjoy it!!!

  • I cannot stop looking at these. He is so beautiful, you are so beautiful, you are all such a beautiful family.

    I have to join in with the chorus of lurkers saying THANK YOU so much for keeping your story public. I have learned so much from you — in factual knowledge, yes, but more importantly just in attitude. and in having the strength to say screw our culture of fear, I know that women are strong.

    I have never planned on anything but all-natural, home births; I’m the third out of five all born at home, into my father’s hands. I devoured Ina May’s Guide to Childbirth my senior year of university, and haven’t shut up about the strength of women and the power of birth since I was probably seventeen. Despite all my talk, though, I still had a lot of fear. Reading your journal has done so much for me. You have such an aura of total peace, total comfort and trust in your body and in the process of birth. You are a natural mother, and you mother in just the way I hope to be able to.

    I’m babbling, and you have much better things to do than read my comment — like nurse that gorgeous baby boy. I just wanted to tell you just how wonderful you are, and how much you’ve done for a lowly lurker. Thank you for being willing to share.

    and again, CONGRATULATIONS! he is so lovely.

  • acme says:


    Wow. What a fantastic birth story! You’re such an inspiration. The pictures are all so beautiful, and the one on the phone made me cry lots of happy tears. Oh, and I love the name!

    Can I ask where you learned so much about pregnancy and birth? Is there a source you can point me to? I’d love to learn more.

    Congratulations to you and your beautiful, beautiful family.

    • admin says:

      Re: Congratulations!!!!

      There is no one source… just start reading. There’s a lot of alarmist information on both sides, so you get a feel for how to tell the difference, but start by taking things you’re afraid of and researching them until they don’t scare you anymore.
      Afraid of bleeding out? Did you know women don’t die in under 90 minutes from a PPH? Learn why, learn how to recognize the signs and realize how it’s pretty easy to figure out “gee I’m bleeding an awful lot” and treat or transfer. Just start looking around.

      • acme says:

        Re: Congratulations!!!!

        Oops, I realised when I read over my question that it sounds like I think there’s a book of answers somewhere with all the info in it. I just thought maybe you knew of particularly good books, journal articles, online stuff etc that has unbiased info. I like to think I am well educated on things to do with birth, but when I read what you write I realise there’s so much to learn!

        You make a good point about researching things you’re afraid of until you’re no longer afraid of them. I’ll start by doing that.

        And again, congratulations. Xan is gorgeous and I wish you and your family a wonderful time together as you start getting to know your new addition! πŸ™‚

  • jess3686 says:

    yet another lurker coming out of hiding….

    I’ve been reading your journal since early in your pregnancy with Jericho, and I must say that you are such an inspiration to me. I’m many years away from being a mom, but your stories about Tempest, Jericho, and now Xan make me so excited to experience pregnancy and birth for exactly what they are and not with the distractions and worries that modern medicine make so many women to think are necessary.
    Xan is gorgeous, thank you so much for sharing his birth!

  • hoodwink says:

    I love the picture of you on the phone. I haven’t seen you look so happy since I added you.

    congrats to you and your family:)

  • bluekermit says:

    I found you with Jericho’s birth story, and being able to… share this moment… I am so so so happy for your family, your entire family. I can’t believe all this time has passed since that “did you know (something) is only 97% effective? O’rly? Really!” entry… Babies are blessings, and Xan is… like even more of a blessing πŸ™‚

    Much, much love! xoxoxo

  • I know you don’t know me, I comment from time to time, but I love your posts.

    Xan is beautiful, and I am crying again in joy for you and your family.

    I felt much the same way with the birth of my youngest. I had him in 2 hours. (albeit in the hospital) He was bigger than my oldest, but it was much easier pushing him out. We were terrified (new parents) when we had my oldest boy, and when I had my youngest we were laughing and smiling throughout. I remember holding him, and wanting to get up and walk out of the hospital. I felt I didn’t need them. We were there 3 days. And it was miserable. I just wanted to go home. After reading your LJ I have learned so much. My instincts were right. I should have had my boys at home. On my terms. Thank you for showing women their power. I wish I had found your journal a sooner.


  • frogger414 says:

    Thank you for sharing your story, it is so beautiful and I am so estastic for you and your family!

  • That was beautiful….thanks so much for sharing it. I am fully planning on having a UC for our first, thanks to you and other mothers like you who share your experiences and encourage the rest of us. Thank you!!

    My sister had a pretty negative birth experience in a hospital setting with my niece, but I’m hoping she sees the benefits of UC for her next. πŸ˜‰

  • missrayder says:

    Re-reading your entry, it occurred to me … what a wonderful model you are for Tempest. You are planting the seeds for a positive and powerful self-image. If only every little girl could witness such empowered acts in her early years. Way to go!

  • gypsymommy says:

    I am so happy for you! Congratulations. He is absolutely beautiful!

  • timmytm says:

    “You still a boy?”


  • gmommy says:

    Wow. Thank you so much for sharing your story and photos. I’m planning a (midwife assisted) homebirth in November πŸ™‚

  • laananas says:

    A nipple!

    *shields eyes*

    Hehe, just kidding. I was actually hoping for graphic pictures- I love labor and birth pictures.

    Beautiful birth story, and I adore the next to last picture. Your face in that picture makes my heart swell- it just says so much.

  • miss_boots says:

    gosh, he’s such a beautiful little boy!

    you look STUNNING in the picture where you’re on the phone.

    the birth sounds like it was wonderful.
    congratulations, again!

  • lkf03 says:

    That was really beautiful to read. Your happiness really shows in those pictures. He is darling. Congratulations!

  • heavynleigh says:

    Your birth story is amazing and incredibly inspiring. It gives me a lot of hope for myself for the future. Congrats again!

  • julierocket says:

    I was feeling rather ridiculous, thinking that I was going to have my baby in front of the computer with Livejournal up on the screen and how I could never again claim to not be addicted to the internet if that actually came to pass.

    You should have warned us! We’d have made posts like there was NO TOMORROW to keep you entertained ;D

    He’s beautiful, Heather. Although I can’t quite figure out who he looks like. I’m so happy that everything went well for you. I’m bookmarking this entry, just in case I go the unassisted route someday πŸ™‚

  • That 4th pic looks like “did I do okay mom?”

    Congrats hon.
    How is Tempest handling it all?

  • Incredible! I am very happy for you. The story was so great, I was so excited while reading it! The pictures are beautiful! You are definitely an example setting mother; confident, knowledgeable and glowing with happiness!

  • unconformed says:

    Wow, reading that took me right back to Luka’s birth. It almost makes me want to do it again… but then I look at the two boys I have already and my sense of self-preservation kicks in.
    Beautiful baby and you look awesome in that pic on the phone!

  • OH my gosh, I’m crying my eyes out! Beautiful! He’s absolutely beautiful. Great name, btw. *Of course, you knew that, lol*

    I’m just so impressed, great story, fantastic! I know I’m going to add tis to my collection of “inspiring stories to prepare for birth”. Thanks so much for sharing.

  • _melly says:

    Congrats again, your birth story is very insipring! He is beautiful.

  • waifstar says:

    I have been reading your journal for many months now (after stumbling across it through the ditl community), and have read you throughout this journey with Xan. He’s a beautiful, beautiful baby and it sounds like it was an amazing birthing experience.

    Congratulations. πŸ™‚

  • robynz says:

    I am so excited and can’t wait to see new little faces on your layout banner.

    You’re amazing. πŸ™‚ I adore you, even though the majority of the time I am only a lurker :>

  • fkgirl says:

    I am so happy for you…as soon as I started reading, I started tearing up. I can’t say anything except for welcome to the world little Xan. I don’t know of a better mommy for you to have. Much love to you all.

  • So beautiful and wonderful.

    The pictures make my uterus ache.

  • !!!!
    i love the pictures, all of them!!!!! what a beautiful guy!
    i wonder if your twin feelings were because he’s another dark haired boy?

    i love him!

  • pipu says:

    Congratulations, again. He is so beautiful, and you are glowing. What a wonderful birth!

  • That is so beautiful. It’s givin me a touch of babylust.
    I LOVE that picture of you on the phone, it really shows the joy of the occation.

  • xavi7734 says:

    Thank you thank you thank you for being so wonderful and sharing this story with us. You are an amazing woman, with an amazing family and I am proud to be able to read and share your story with you.

    Enjoy your babymoon, you deserve it.

  • nznats says:

    I am so happy to be crying these tears for you, Xan is gorgeous, he doesnt look new at all if you know what I mean, Yes he looks like a baby but there is just something else there (I hope that doesnt sound offensive or nuts to you)
    Enjoy your baby moon mama you guys deserve it πŸ™‚

  • lalicopa says:

    I haven’t stopped thinking about you guys since you posted that Xan was born.

    I’m dying over that picture of you on the phone…I think it’s the only one I’ve ever seen of you smiling.

    Can’t wait for the next few years of posts, to hear all about Tempest and Xan’s antics!

    I’m so very truly happy for you all.

  • the_lissa says:

    Congrats again. You described so much how I felt with birthing at home feeling normal, etc.

    I really need to finish my birth story.

    My milk came in really early with Liam too. He peed 4x in the first 24 hours.

  • That’s just amazing. What an incredible, beautiful story. You give me much hope for having a VBAC!!

    Beautiful boy, and that last picture of the 2 of you is so… real!

  • psyko_kitty says:

    What a fantabulous latch that baby has!
    Congratulations to your family!!

  • myluckeestar says:

    He is beautiful. You are beautiful. I am crying hot tears of joy for you.

  • beautiful beautiful.
    but, yo, have i mentioned i’m totally jealous?

  • idiolecto says:

    I’m sure I’m not the only one to crave your updates. Great story and pictures. The one of you on the phone makes me smile.

  • emilie1024 says:

    The phone pic is awesome πŸ™‚ I would so have a home birth if I could get pregnant!

  • yay! you are such an inspirational person, I don’t plan to have kids for a while, but you have taught me so, so much about it. Congratulations on having such a peaceful birth experience and a beautiful baby boy!

  • aughraseye says:

    How wonderful! I am looking forward to hearing your reflections on your experience. He is so beautiful.

    My husband freaked a bit when Blythe first was born and wasn’t breathing, even though her color was perfect. I still tease him about it! It’s amazing how perverted the image of birth has become by the mass hospitalization of birthing women. Also, I know what you mean about feeling amazing. I tore pretty badly, yet I still felt just fine after our birth!

    You did great, Xan did great, and you are such an inspiration to women. I am so glad to read your story! COngratulations again!

  • Yep, that cinches it. Home birthing only for me. πŸ™‚
    I’m so glad it was everything you wanted it to be!
    Who were you telling on the phone? You look so excited and happy that it looks like you’re talking to your father. That’s my favourite photo.

    Now then! When do we get one of the siblings together? πŸ˜€

  • ryver says:

    Oh honey. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m very excited and happy for you and your family.

  • hair2do says:

    I am so glad it was so peaceful and wonderful for you. Congratulations again!

  • smilenfrown says:

    That’s one of the most amazing and beautiful stories I’ve ever read… Best wishes to you guys!!

  • Anonymous says:

    I am so glad it was so peaceful and wonderful for you. Congratulations again!

  • raisangrrl says:

    OH! OH! OH! Congrats hun!
    You’re so beautiful and so is HE. OMG! It’s a BOY! YAY!
    You’re AWSOME!

  • Anonymous says:

    Congrats again. He’s just adorable & your birth story was a huge inspiration for me – I’m expecting #2 in December & am trying for a VBAC…so if it goes half as well as yours, I’ll be happy πŸ™‚


  • Reading that makes me want a home birth next time even more.

  • elise06 says:

    I’ve been checking all day for an update. Still so very happy for you and your growing family! Simply amazing…

  • psychofox says:

    I’m in tears here…

  • gngr says:

    *laughs* Birth in front of the computer.. I wouldn’t put it past you. ;))) Thanks for this, I was grinning like a loon through the whole thing. Thanks for showing us what you experienced. πŸ™‚

  • andshedied says:

    I’m so freakin’ excited for you, you have no idea.
    I had a home waterbirth just under a year ago, and it was a dream.
    Congratulations, he’s beautiful, you’re beautiful.

  • tramissa says:

    He’s so beautiful – he looks so strong!

    I love the expression of pure joy on your face when you’re on the phone.

    Welcome to the world little Xan.

    How’s Tempest liking her brother?

  • fairmaiden76 says:

    Beautiful! πŸ™‚ I Love his name btw…that was my fav boys name, but i had a girl.
    Glad everything went so well!
    Out of curiousity, how long was your labor with Tempest?

  • Anonymous says:

    OMG how happy you look :). This completely made my day :).

    BTW I was cracking up about having the baby at the computer. I could just see me doing that :).

    You are a bad influence on me, I can hardly wait to have my next UC πŸ™‚ (baby’s only 4 mo old and I have 4!)

    Beautiful little boy!

  • collette says:

    Those are gorgeous pictures. And what a lovely story. I can picture it all happening just the way you said.

    I love the picture of you on the phone. You look so happy.

  • thespatula says:

    Beautiful! *squeals at the sight of cute baby*

  • bicrim says:

    I am weepy. Congratulations, mama! It must be nice to have a nursling again! I am so glad for you that you had another boy! How is big sister adjusting?

  • kimmellee says:

    What a wonderful birth experience for you and Xan! Congratulations!

  • You are going to turn the eighth photo into your very own *squee* icon, right?

  • freedom123 says:

    Thank you so much for sharing your story with us.

    Xan is adorable! I have to agree with everyone about the phone pic…you look so incredibly happy!

    Congrats! Sending you happy baby vibes!

  • sunkist33 says:

    Great pictures! So glad you updated~ I was getting antsy!
    Beautiful birth story!

  • You are amazing. I so badly want to have my next baby naturally. I shall start prepping my mother now that I will be having a VBAC and that c-sections arent that big of a deal. Hopefully by the time I am pregnant she will understand. I cant wait til the LLL meeting so I can see him in person.

  • julieannie says:

    How amazingly wonderful. I’m glad you had a peaceful birth with your comfort level considered. He’s just perfect.

  • mommybug says:

    A lurker – unlurking. I just wanted to thank you for making your story public. You’ve taught me a lot — probably more than you could know. Several of my ideas about pregnancy and childbirth have changed because of what I’ve read in your journal.

    Xan is beautiful, your photos are beautiful, and CONGRATULATIONS!

  • missrayder says:

    The phone picture made me laugh out loud, it’s so happy!!

    I’m just so impressed with you.

  • luxoxo says:

    once again, u brought tears to my eyes. MAN you are so brave, and you even did it in your own tub, not the expensive disposables i have heard about. i so wanted to do a birth in a tub but my dr said no. Too bad I didnt find you when I was pregnant with Adeline:)
    He is soo beautilful. Your family is soo rich in so much love, and the last picture that little girl that we see all the time in Tempest photos where u see her purity and and how solidly ( dont think thats a word) she is happy in life, there it is, it comes from mommmy..:)
    Congrats again:)
    Enjoy Xan, he is prescious. how is tempest doing btw…

  • Oh, baby! I’m all misty here. Been stalking LJ waiting for your story. Thank you so much for sharing this intimate, lovely event.

    Dreamy, he is. Dreamy. Congratulations to your whole family. May the joy never cease!

  • healthnut22 says:

    Beautiful photos.

    You are a massive inspiration. Before this year, I never would’ve realize unassisted pregnancy was an option beyond basic homebirth practices. It’s something I would love to do, but wouldn’t have dared to think.

    Thank you, thank you. And bless that beautiful little babe. He’s adorable.

  • I had no idea you were due already, this pregnancy seems to have flown by! He is absolutely beautiful, the perfect size and that look in his eye as he’s having some milk is wonderful.

    As a side note, I remember when my mom saying “Come on baby, come on baby!” after she had one of my sisters at home.

  • j_lew says:

    his hair looks curly! oooh he is just so georgeous !

  • maylea_moon says:

    i skipped to the pictures because rowan’s jumping on my lap going BABY!! BABY!! but i will read the story tonight.

    i love the one where youre on the phone laughing. they’re all beautiful

  • inawhile says:

    Your birth story made me cry, because it made me realize how much un-birth my own story was, again.

    Congratulations. It is so nice to know that you achieved the natural home birth that you wanted and that Giganto-Hands, M.D. didn’t get to do any of this again to you.

    Welcome to your 3rd baby boy ! Wheee boys!

  • devilgrrl says:

    Congratulations! He’s beautiful.

  • tobeborn says:

    Those pictures are beautiful, you’re making me cry over here! How incredible! I’m all excited to give birth again, and I’m not even considering another any time soon! I’m so happy for you!!

  • greenmama says:

    Beautiful story, beautiful baby. I’d love to do an unassisted or plain home birth, but after having my first 5 weeks early I’m just so scared…

    Congratulations mama!

    • admin says:

      Jericho was born six weeks early. πŸ™‚
      It doesn’t necessarily mean all your babies will be born premature, it means that one was. Aside, generally people transfer for preterm labour and receive care they actually need. The cutoff for homebirth is generally 36-37 weeks.

      • greenmama says:

        Ahh, I guess when I’m pregnant again I could plan on a homebirth with the realization that I may have to go to the hospital.

        I hated the hospital. I realize that they have protocols, but omg, they were so annoying. Shift changes were the worst. Different rules every couple of hours.

        I had a midwife, but once labor was over I was at the mercy of the crazy staff.

    • My first was 8 weeks early, second full term attempted UC. πŸ˜‰

  • taosma says:

    You are both so beautiful! πŸ˜€

  • zipher says:

    Gosh, he is so amazingly gorgeous! I admire you so much for what you did. And, that last picture of you on the phone is one of the most beautiful photos I have ever seen.

    Thank you.

  • jellho says:

    wonderful. simpley wonderful!


  • starparticle says:

    My my computer is wet with tears! So glad to hear you are all intact, what a big fellow! Leif was only 6.5 pounds and I tore like crazy…

    You all look incredible.

  • janaya says:

    I couldn’t grin bigger. πŸ˜€ I am just in awe.

  • thecranewife says:

    what a beautiful birth!
    Have a wonderful babymoon.

  • cat_heron says:

    I don’t even know you, and I’m crying! I’m happy you had such a peaceful, natural, “non-traumatic” birth.

    The only thing that scares me, and I didn’t even think of it until I read this, are the moments when the baby first comes out, before they begin to breathe. I don’t know that I could trust myself to get a baby breathing. I can’t believe those moments aren’t terrifying!

  • kaethe says:

    He’s beautiful. That seems like such an awesome experience. I’m really happy for you that it went so well!

  • florassecret says:

    Congrats! I’m so happy for you!
    When you want ‘other’ visitors just let us know.
    I’m so very happy for you.
    Congrats again!

    • admin says:

      Honestly I feel great, you can come by if you want. πŸ™‚ We have to go out later to print off the registration forms (live birth, MSP) but will be home after that.

      • florassecret says:

        I always ask first before we just ‘go’ OMG I am so excited. I have tears. REALLY HAPPY for you!
        Um, I have a surprise for you and your family.

      • florassecret says:

        and ps.
        >>>I hear short labours are really intense…
        Mine was only intense toward the very last ten minutes or so, but really it wasn’t as hard as I thought it was going to be. I spent most of it wondering when it was going to get worse.< <<

        I know that happened to me with Madeline. I was like wow, this is it..I’m about to push a baby through…and within 4 minutes of hard labour she was born.

        and LOL her time of birth was 6:04pm
        and I talked to gerald and he says tomorrow afternoon around 4pmish we’ll come to see you and the family.

  • macabre says:

    Aww, he looks great! What a wonderful birth you had. I hope my next birth will be like it.

  • imadinowhore says:

    By the way, this picture shows how much Tempest looks like you.

  • zeldazonk says:




  • imadinowhore says:

    This makes me so not scared at all to have an at-home birth.

    Again, congratulations.

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